Maybe I'm too suspicious
Maybe I'm too conspicous
But right now i feel bad
And it's not because of that
Faking it through
Never stopping to give it a thought
Yes I don't believe in myself
I've put my self-esteem back on the shelf
Why does one mistake
Will never let you brake?
Faking it through
Never stopping to think it through
I'm scared to think back
Scared to change tack
Which is reality?
Which path leads to fatality?
Faking it through
Now stoping to give it a throught
I think about it
The more I think the more scared I felt
What if everyone leaves me?
What if school turned out to be like Primary One?
Reality dawning
The clearer it gets the deeper I go
Let go, let go
Let go, let go
The voice calling from my heart
But I'm scared to do so, scared that I'll just fall apart
Now the darkness is thinning
Cracks of light, of hope, glimmering
I cling onto the fear
Still swimming in tears
That outer shell
Starting to crack as time tells
Cracks of light, hope, shimmering
Now i know that dawn is approaching
I'm scared to cry
Scared to try
Scared to let go
Scared to show the woes
Light is wavering
The light is going
Now as the tears flush down
I feel as if I'm going to drown
When will it be clear?
When will there be no more tears?
That candle of hope
Starting to die
Let go, let go
Be strong, be strong
Many people stand behind you
Can you not see their faces?
The rain is stopping
Wind is dropping
Yes, I can see them
Yes, I can hear them
I know them
I KNOW THEM!
The storm stopped
Confusion ceased
I can see! I can hear!
Now I can feel the tears
In my heart
Shatter, falling apart
Barriers dropped
Light flooded
Now, I want to
I yearn to
I wish to
I hope to
The sun breaks through the clouds
The new day begins!
Apoloigise
Adknowledge
Know
THANK
Clouds disperse
Warmth seeps through the earth!
The end of my mindless struggle
End of the neverending trickle
Of sadness
Of loneliness
The new day truly begins
Spring takes over as winter fades
This poem is dedicated to all my friends, family and others who have helped me.
Also, an apology to a lot of people. I hope you all accept it.
3:37 PM
