Wednesday, April 16, 2008Y
I shall reveal the reply. So sweet(:
haha. I don't believe I'm using sweet to describe something a teacher wrote.
怎么会介意呢？那是一颗多么美好的女儿的好心啊！I don't know why I'm displaying this for the whole world to know.
Seriously I don't know.
Don't try to pry into my private business, I'm telling you. This blog is private. It is the place where I spill my heart out. And some of it is not for you to hear. Mum, can you give me a bit of space? Can you let me be with my own thoughts? I'm not telling you not to talk to me or something, but the way you speak to me is like you're prying through my private thoughts. And that is not allowed. I know I sound very unfriendly, but, private things are private. Now you've found out this blog. I don't know what next. I have a lot of secrets kept locked from you. Because I can't even sort out my own thoughts. Should I go back to china or should I just stay in singapore for selfish reasons? I notice that you are quite unhappy here. Should I go back, and let our family be united? I feel as if I have inherited the position of "family glue" from my grandmother. Grandad isn't really calling. He just wants to speak to me. I know. And I know that dad also wants to speak to me. I sometimes feel as if I'm the only one that's holding this family together. Dad's not divorcing because of me. I don't mean that he wants to divorce, but if he did, I would be the only thing to stop him. I don't know, I just feel somewhat burdened.
You see me tapping on the com all day long, posting, editing HTML etc.
That is just my way of running away.
I'm scared to cry.
Crying is a display of weakness to me.
It means letting someone else worry for you.
Which they shouldn't be.
My problems are my problems. They shouldn't add load to someone elses' already heavy burden.Sigh.
Feel emo now but have no inspiration to write a poem or something.
8:35 PM
