I SUCK!!! I TOTALLY SUCK!!!
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE OK.
I JUST FAILED 2 FRENCH ASSESSMENTS IN A ROW CAN!!!
NOT TO MENTION PRACTICALLY ALL MY QUIZZES, AND A HUGE BUNCH OF ASSESSMENTS!!!!!!!!!
AND THAT CONTROLE.
I WORKED FOR CONTROLE DEUX!!! I REVISED FOR CONTROLE DEUX!!!
BUT WHY DID I GET SUCH A PATHETIC MARK FOR CONTROLE DEUX WHEN IT'S ACTUALLY A BIT EASIER THAN CONTROLE UN?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!
THE REASON SHOULD BE THAT I SUCK.
I TOTALLY SUCK.
I feel like giving up but my pride says that I can't. So should I still go on with it or not?
Pride, or fatigue?
You decide.
I wish I'm still small.
Where adults makes all the decisions. You don't need to care at all.
When I was small I longed to grow up.
And now when I'm gradually taking everything into my own hands I want to return to a five year-old kid.
Weird, right?
All humans are weird.
So much for the don't quit poem. It doesn't even help. It's just a stupid chunk of words. A boost.
Someone poke me. I want to wake up from this reality nightmare.
Or maybe I should just fall asleep.
Dreams are wonderful. Because they are not real.
Reality... you can't do anything about it. Maybe change it, reverse it. You can't do anything about it.
But if I let myself fall asleep now I won't want to wake up.
Isn't facing reality what we do everyday? I can't run away from it. It'll catch up with me someday. And then the blow would be a hard one.
Haiz. Quit or not quit?
Up to me, actually.
I want someone else to take charge. NOW.
Now when I look back, childhood sounds like a very very good idea.
And my grandmother would be with me at that time. She would know what to do, she always does.
9:04 PM
