Ok. I SHALL BLOG ABOUT THE WHOLE DAY.
Just the bits I didn't blog about in the last post.
When I came to school like ZOMG liwei wasn't in school yet. I thought she had taken the earlier bus with Mo!
Then ji lao shi came in super early larh.
Then after the pledge-taking she explained the fenxi to me.
Before that she was digging around in my pencil case, saw my purple pen(<3!)and was playing around with it. :/
Then she used my purple pen to annotate the fenxi thingo that my whole group couldn't understand the meaning.
MY PRECIOUS PURPLE PEN!!!
Gosh I sound like Gordon in Lord of the Rings.
-.-"
Haha. At least can edit the fenxi for the better now!!!~~~
Haha.
Well after that was speech training.
I kenna
糗 again during speech training.
-.-"
I ALWAYS
糗 during speech training. Stupid.
This time was because I suddenly blanked out during the tap clap shoot thingo.
-.-"
I couldn't remember the sheng mu :/
Well I CAN bei it, but not so well.
And OMG I didn't recognise Charmaine's voice?!
-.-"
WHY AM I SO EASILY NERVOUS.
Nevermind.
I hope I'm not goint to
糗下去 for speech training. I've had enough of
糗-ing during speech training. :/
OH CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!
I've just remembered that I FORGOT TO HAND UP THE EF1 CORRECTIONS AGAIN!
WTH.
Heck larh.
-.-"
Old age is catching up.. LOL.
Fast forward to French.
WTH WTH WTH I LOST THAT PENCIL THAT MISS FOO GAVE ME FOR CHILDREN'S DAY!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
ZENMEBANZENMEBANZENMEBAN!!!
I just remembered hearing a "piak" when I was head-down on the desk and half-asleep.
OHMYTIAN.
I'M SO DEAD SO DEAD SO DEAD SO DEAD!!!
D:
AHHHHHHHH!!!!!
I'VE GOT TO FIND IT BACK.
:/
French lesson nowadays=falling asleep in class.
Cecilia actually DID fall asleep in class. 5 mins only larh. OMG and it was actually ENOUGH to get her recharged. Don't know how she does it :/ have to learn from her.
Stuff about sleep that I want to learn:
1)How to sleep on the bus
2)How to fall asleep once you touch your pillow
3)How to manage to have dreamless sleeps
Seriously now practically every night had been fitful.
Just YESTERDAY I dreamt something about ji lao shi(well that was the only character I can remember from that dream). That was super freaky. I forgot already. It was totally very
杂乱, like a messed up movie trailer. That was all I can remember.
And those dreams can be totally
要命. One moment I'm dreaming of something funny and I laugh in my sleep. The other moment I'm dreaming about something totally the opposite not sure whether I cry or not larh.
Those dreams can seriously tear you. That's why I've been sleeping early for this week but I feel very very lethargic whenever I wake up.
I wish I can remember what I've dreamed of. It might cast some sense of comfort.
It's damn freaky ok.
And the point is I CAN'T REMEMBER ANYTHING FROM THE DREAM.
Wait.
The movie trailer one I had yesterday.
I think it started out happy or something. I can just remember a classroom and that's it.
Those dreams come the most clearly when I wake up in the middle of the night and then I go to sleep again.
The most freakish dream I had below. Do not read it unless you want to.
I remember the most freakish one I had was when my mum was murdered by some guy. I was watching from my own point of view.
And ohmytian. It was scary. No blood.
No huffing and puffing.
I remember getting her into this lift of a flat that looked very office-ish after she'd been stabbed.
And I remembered meeting this guy in the lobby of that flat. And then we talked and he said a lot of philosophical stuff that was totally unrelated. Something about death I think.
And that guy looked so calm it totally freaks me out.
And then I got her to the dunno how many-th floor.
And then I tried to treat her.
And then she said this very very very freaky sentence, in a voice that was SO hoarse it didn't really sound like hers at all! Like some spirit's speaking through her! And do you know what she said? IN A VERY CALM VOICE SOME MORE.“没有用的。。。*cant rmb this part*。。。还有，损坏了的心。” SO FREAKY.
And then I woke up.
And that was not the most freaky part! You know during the dream I FELT AS IF I'M THE ONE GUIDING THE DREAM!!! I WAS!!! I KNEW I WAS!!! THAT'S WHY IT'S SO FREAKY!!! I'M ACTUALLY GUIDING MY MUM TO DIE OK!!! THAT'S SO DAMN FREAKY!!! AND I ACTUALLY WANTED TO STAY IN THE DREAM BEFORE I OPENED MY EYES TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENED!!! IT'S SO NOT NORMAL!!! I'M ACTUALLY GUIDING THE WHOLE THING!! I AM!!! I AM!! WHY AM I SO EVIL!!! I'M NOT NORMAL!!! I DON'T FEEL NORMAL!!!
Haiz.
I seriously hope that I'm wrong and I'm not guiding the dream.
Cause I don't want my mum to die.
After I woke up I went to hug my mum and then there was cold sweat dripping down all over me. The blanket was wet. No tears but I was super scared.
And then we talked over half the night. I didn't tell her that I felt as if I was the one guiding the dream.
Come to think of it, I was guiding the dream. Only at the later part when I felt myself starting to wake up. That part when she said about the heart thingo. I somehow knew that sentence was coming.
What did I do wrong? Dreams are a reflection of fears and hopes.
I seriously hope that dream is not one of my hopes.
Are dreams good or evil?
Another question.
God.
Why am I wasting 20 minutes posting this now.
But I seriously feel better after posting that dream.
:D
Ok. I shall go do my Math SIA reflection and analysis and work allocation now!:D
Byebye people!:D
7:40 PM
