THIS IS GOING TO BE A BIG BIG LONG LONG RANT TO LET OUT MY FEELINGS FOR THE PAST WEEK.
SUPER STRESSED AND THE STUFF THAT'S MAKING ME STRESSED :
#1 FACTORISATION
I know the concept!!! I can do the questions!!! But then why am I doing math until 10pm++ without rest except eating dinner and bathing EVERY DAY?!?!?!??!?!?!??!?! I'M NOT FAST ENOUGH!! After I come home from cca, exhausted, bad-tempered, I still have to deal with that stupid stupid FACTORISATION. And when I'm tired I do math v.v.v.v. slowly. RESULT = SLEEPING LATE = EXHAUSTED THE NEXT DAY = NOT ABLE TO CONCENTRATE ON LESSON = DYING ON HOMEWORK, AGAIN
A vicious cycle, huh.
I can do faster if I practise!! BUT I HAVE NO TIME!!!!
Let me tell you my schedule for sat and sun:
Sat
7.20 wake up
7.50 go school
8.20-12pm dazu
1pm-3.30pm piano!!
3.30pm-6.30pm laoshi's lesson(+travel time)
7pm onwards: HOMEWORK
Sun
7.20 wake up
morning: read TKAM
afternoon: revise homework, complete uncompleted homework, read TKAM, chinese SIA
evening: piano, dizi
Now for my MONDAY schedule:
5.45-2.20 school
come back from school: homework, prac math, pre-study
evening: piano and dizi
Die lah.
#2 SYF
AUDITIONS ARE SO NOT TIMELY. IT CLASHES WITH HUIBAO, HMP 2ND INSTRU PERFORMANCE(GRADED!!!), AND HANDING UP OF CHINESE SIA. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE, I DON'T KNOW.
And after every dazu, I come home very dejected. For some reason, stuff I can play well in xiaozu fails in dazu. For example the qi lian yin. I can do it when I'm alone!! But when mrs ee is watching my nerves fail and I die. Lack of practise? NO WAY how can morning prac + lunch prac + ownself prac still called lack of practise?!?! So it's either because of not enough, I'm too lazy, prac-ing method wrong, my nerves are too stretched, or plainly the mrs ee effect. T-T
#3 SIAs
Coming to that, I think the teachers are trying to kill us students or something. Known SIA due dates are as follows:
Chinese:
6th Feb: 1st fenxi, file cover and qian yan
10th March: 2nd and 3rd fenxi
24 April: Complete everything
HMP:
1)Concert Journal: 2 by start of term 3, 1 by end of term 3
2)Listening Journal: 2 by end of term 2, 2 by end of term 3
3)Music Analysis: 2 by end of term 2
4)Composition/1st instru performance: Term 2/3, comp by end of term 3
Which is quite siao already.
Oh, I forgot, there's still CME.
The project.
GAH.
I feel stress when I look at the list.
With lunches and mornings gone I only can do it after CCA.
I was so busy that I actually had no time to return my library books. Wow. Cos morning got prac, break need to eat, lunch got prac, after school need tune, eat, pai yi zi and grab some extra prac time before it's mrs ee who's coaching you.
#4 TKAM
I should have read it in the holidays!! Now it's so not worth it wasting your sleep time to chiong finish the novel -.- and there are no short cuts either. Wikipedia never provides an unseen-type analysis in the plot summary, does it?
Ok. But anyway today dazu was damn funny(: Pamela and Phyllis were behaving childishly!! Muahahaha they were imitating mrs ee conducting and swaying in time to the "huan le de" part in chun, pop-song style! LOL.
I actually paparazzi-ed a picture muahahaha but can't post it now(: too late le
Today dazu wasn't that bad. At least I didn't mess up the bar 46 part. And I can finally do the semiquaver part!!:D although my #1 isn't clear, but still(: and yeah my yinzhun is tres horrible T-T
Although it's a bit sian stoning and waiting for mrs ee to finish lian-ing a section):
This time dazu isn't so "dejectful" as last time(: Tmr still got prac! I hope I can do better haha. During the theme part I made some mistakes. But I think Phyllis(blowing xiao C) covered me muahahaha. So I bu zhi yu ruin the whole song.
The parts that I'm most scared of to blow is the solo parts where dizi is the only one playing and all the other instrus fades into accompaniment ><
Esp the "toot toot" part. Somehow I can't do the jian qiang. And I always come in too strongly. It's supposed to be smooth!! Not so abrupt like sudden volcano eruption like that.
OH SHIT I HAVEN'T REARRANGED MY PIANO LESSON YET!! I FORGOT T_T
Gtg!! Byebye!(: JIAYOUS PEOPLE PREPARING FOR AUDITIONS!!!:D
9:32 PM
